Sometimes, don’t you feel so frustrated, angry, irritated, and annoyed af for no apparent reason? You just wake up choosing violence that day. That’s me today …and actually, the past couple of days tbh. I haven’t been sleeping well, thanks to some seriously messed up dreams. It’s so underrated how much that can mess with you. One nightmare, a weird ass creepy dream, and boom the whole day’s got a dark cloud over it. And the craziest thing? The dream probably lasted only a few minutes, but in my mind, it stretched way longer, just long enough to mess with my head for hours later.
I can’t be the only one who has these ultrarealistic dreams. Nothing normal like dinosaurs in tap dancing shoes drinking coffee at the mall. Where i would definitely think “hold on this is definitely a dream!” I mean dreams that feel like real real life. Just ordinary places, familiar people and then something goes off. Like an accident, or someone acting disturbingly weird, or just a scene that brings out real fear. It’s hard to explain, but dreams like these suck. And for those who say, “Oh, but there are good dreams too!”. Well, good for you. I can barely remember the last time I woke up from a genuinely good dream.
I’ve tried everything to ward off these bad dreams. Tried sleeping on different sides of the bed, wondering if there’s some bad energy in the room, yin yang stuff its called i think. Tried drinking water before bed, playing binaural beats, soft music, nature sounds….everything. I haven’t tried tribal dancing on a chair chanting mantras before bed yet though (kidding on that one, don’t need to prove I’m fully nuts haha).
Oh well….here’s to an “awesome” day ahead, courtesy of the shitty dream i just woke up from. Already managed to lash out at my significant other over text…perfect start..right? It felt so justified at the time, but I’m regretting it and feeling bad now. UGHHHHH. WHY!!! Why can’t I just sleep and wake up like a normal person? You know, with a smile, feeling refreshed, healed from good sleep and ready to start the day with positive energy. Or maybe those people are the real nutters? Hmmm…
